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Grace.

I know I need it. I know I have it. it’s hard to accept sometimes.
Spiritual warfare is so strong. Even now…typing this, I can feel it.

Shame, guilt, embarrassment, loss of value…these feelings are my companions, weights on my back. trying to remind myself we’re all saved by grace alone, He can use all things for good, God’s grace is ENOUGH.

To know that and to accept that in your heart are 2 very different things.

people in general think it’s easy to get over, b/c you’re a new creation in Christ, so you’re just washed clean now, like a potion. it’s not like that...everyday, it's hard, at times like this unbearable.

i fall to my knees at the mercy of my God who paid the price for me.

is it pride that holds me back, from the accepctance of grace? a grace and forgivness that is SO undeserving? maybe it's just that in real life i've never experienced forgivness such as the kind God gives, so it's too hard to fathom.

We all fall. All sin is equal in God’s eyes…but all sin does not have the same effects here on earth. Guilt, shame, loss of value are not ramifications of a speeding ticket, or a lie.


He promises to use everything for His good.