in a room of 500, i stand alone

'you need to get married, so you can become tough and you don't care who you offend'.....translation.....'you need to get married, because this is a socially lonely vocation, and you need to have 1 person you can count on'

insight from my boss, who's been in ministry for 15 years. ...my translation to what he's saying.

i feel like he's telling me i can't trust anyone. that all of my friends are self serving, which is true b/c we all are, but that's there's no potential for any of them and they're a hindrance to my work. that they lack maturity, responsibility, depth, leadership, commitment...apparently all these things he sees in me.....sometimes i think he's remembering the wrong person from high school. i know all of these 'talks' we have are intended as compliments, that i'm doing a great job, and things wouldn't run this way without me....but i feel alone and empty when i walk out of his office. drained.

yes, i am filled to the brim with Christ...but God gave us other people for community, right?? for fun and fellowship and relationships.


lonely.